How our nitya-seva in the nitya-lila manifests by Harinam!
The audio quality is not the best and there is background noise due to a recording error about the microphone input. So please bear with me.
Banka Ray’s (Krishna) Attachment to Nitai and Ekachakra
Lord Krishna appeared as the younger son of Hadai and Padmavati and His name was Banka Raya. For ten years Krishna was serving with His brother Nitai but when Krishna came to know that Nitai is going to leave Ekachakra forever then Banka Raya disappeared in the field. He was plowing and harvesting and suddenly Banka Raya entered into Jahnu Kund. There is a temple in the center of Jahnu Kund that is the samadhi of Banka Raya, Shyamsundar. And after He disappeared in Jahnu Kund, there is some connection between Jahnu Kund to Jamuna.
When Banka Raya disappeared in Jahnu Kund and after one year when Nitai was leaving Ekachakra with the sanyasi, then Banka Raya came floating in the water, the deity before leaving. And Banka Raya was made up of neem wood, neem kaat, daru brahma. Because Nitai is unpredictable, He can leave anytime. So Banka Ray prepared then He came as..and see interesting, Banka Ray, Krishna was so much attached to Nitai dham that He appeared floating in the Jamuna in Kadamb Khandi ghat when Nitai was leaving, why? So that Nitai will return back to Ekachakra. He wanted to keep some attachment for Nitai to Ekachakra so that He will come back. So He appeared floating. And then Nitai took Banka Ray and put Him in Kadamba tree and They were talking with each other “come back soon”.
So Banka Ray was like calling Nitai back. Then Nitai promised that’s why He came back with Jahnava and Vasudha. He disappeared in Radha Shyamsundar in Khardaha. But Nitai came back from the deity and He took His 2 consorts and He came to Ekachakra because of promise the promise He had given to Banka Ray. And then with His own hands He made the temple of Banka Ray. He established Banka Ray. And that establishing was itself the disappearing day of Nitai. (pause) When the most merciful Lord in the whole creation He disappears from the world, it is the greatest calamity in the word for 8.64 billion years. When Gauranga disappeared in Tota Gopinath okay the whole universe cried but when Nitai disappeared even the fallen souls, everybody was crying. Who will save them now? So there is a benediction given that even now if you want to be really delivered you should come to Ekachakra and have darshan of Banka Ray because He is Nitai Himself one with Krishna.
Nitai and Ekachakra’s Connection to Madhurya Rasa
Some people may say that Nitai does not know about madhurya rasa but of you see in the form of Banka Ray, He entered into Banka Ray at the same time He surrounded by Radha and Ananga. So when you see Banka ray as Nitai then These 2 become Jahnava and Vasudha. And when you see Him as Krishna it becomes Radha and Ananga. Even if it becomes Jahnava and Vasudha still They are Ananga manjari.
Jahnava Mata’s deity automatically became very very shorter than Radharani like 13 years because Ananga manjari is 13 and Radharani is 15. So who says Ekachakra is not madhurya? Full of madhurya after Banka Ray temple if you will go, you will get all madhurya lila places like Radhakunda Shyamkund, Giriraj in Ekachakra. If you see in Ekachakra, Giriraj so beautiful green. Its not big, its small.
Waiting for the Opportunity to Grab Nita’s Lotus Feet
Devotee: Why don’t you have ashram in Radhakunda there?
Good point, I already had ashram in Radhakunda here. So there I went because I want Nitai‘s mercy 1st so that I can enter into my kunja in Radhakunda by Nitai’s mercy. So I wanted to just be outside Nitai’s door offering eternal dandavats, tears flowing from my eyes and making a kunda on its own. So if Nitai passes He will see it has become wet with tears and Nitai will say who is this crying so much in front of my road? Let me deliver. For hours I am just lying on the road and offering dandavats. The whole Nitya lila time passes and Nitai comes back, I am still there just for the opportunity to grab His lotus feet, toe nails of His lotus feet. Everything is there.
Nitai is Vraj Bhumi And Ekachakra is Gupt Vrindavan
Krishna can recommend you to Radha but Nitai can give you your own Kunja with Radha.Why? Because Nitai has the biggest influence on Radha. Radha’s younger sister is Nitai’s Shakti. Balaram is the dham, the sandhini shakti of the dham. So when Balaram manifests His own dham in kaliyuga, He will bring the whole Vraj bhumi in His dham because the Vraj bhumi is under His control. He is Vraj bhumi, Balaram! That is why Ekachakra is known as gupta Vrindavan. You can see the Sakhas and the Sakhis always going around. If He has become the dham of vraj. He has the right to manifest Vraj wherever He wants because He is Vraj. So His dham is most special.
Devotee: Like Radhakunda is Madhurya so Ekachakra is mixed?
What mixed, is Vraj bhumi not mixed? Giriraj ji you feel sakhya lila starting from Gwalpokar. Radhakunda is only this much. So why are you going to Vrindavan tomorrow? Wherever you are going, why are you leaving Radhakunda if you always want to stay in madhurya rasa. Why are you staying 8 months in Switzerland? There is no rasa in Switzerland. Which is rasa is there? Satva guna, mode of goodness. What is satvaguna? No value, its just bondage!
Jahnava Mata in Ekachakra as Ananga Manjari in Radhakunda
The thing is, it’s a beautiful thing. Very good question. It gave me a very nice sphurti. In Yogapith in Mayapur, Gauranga Mahaprabhu’s Yogapith. His two wives are Laxmipriya and Vishnupriya. Laxmipriya is from Vaikuntha and Vishnupriya is from Dwarka and Ayodhya. But in Nityananda Prabhu’s Yogapith in Ekachakra, His both wives are Ananga manjari. They are from Radhakunda. So Nita’s badi, the home of Nitai is itself Radhakunda. I had explained when you come that in Nitai kund in the center of the place there is a golden temple that Jahnava Mata saw in the vision, beautiful 16 petal. That’s also there in Ekachakra. Temple of Ananga, Jahnava Mata. Because Jahnava Mata is in Madhurya rasa so whenever Jahnava Mata wants to relish the Madhyan lila of Radha and Krishna because Nitai is outside at that time with His cows and His Sakhas. So whenever Jahnava Mata wants to relish the Madhyan lila, She just goes and crosses the bridge and enters into Her Kunja and She is remembering the pastime of the Madhyan lila. She closes the eyes and instantly She is in Radhakunda as Ananga manjari.
When you say Ananga then you should feel the mood and complexion. Ananga, wah! I can say whole day Ananga! Ananga! Its so blissful. When Krishna’s name and Krishna’s form starts becoming one while chanting the Hare Krishna Mahamantra mantra then even His associates name starts becoming one. You say any of His associates like Radha, Radharani immediately the name of Radharani and the form of Radharani will come. All the names of the Lords will assume transcendental significance or sphurtis in your heart by the power of the Holy Name. Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare.
I don’t know even in the night when I chant Harinam, like just now I am chanting immediately I was having a cloth in my hand and I was cleaning the sinhasana for Radha and Krishna to sit in Ananga Manjari’s Kunja Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. If you can feel. This is known as seva nam. What is it called? Seva nam! First come rupa nam then comes guna nam then comes lila nam then comes parikar nam then comes dham nam then comes seva nam. But sometimes you get a glimpse of seva nam in the beginning only. I am not saying that I have reached that stage only. But seva nam. Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. I will tell you what I felt this time. This time I felt that I have cleaned the sinhasana and I am sitting down and cleaning the platform from down. Its coming automatically, I am not making any force or I am not imagining please. Because all of you have some amount of faith in me atleast 1% faith so that’s why I am telling this. That’s why I love cleaning our ashram also. Whenever I clean they come and say no Gurudev we are doing and I feel so bad. 1st you become a manjari and then help me in the lila and then you can stop me here(laugh). Nitaiputra das’s manjari bhaav is sleeping (laugh).
Realizations on Seva by Manjaris in Radhakunda Jal Lila
Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. Just now I chanted Harinam and had beautiful realization, Hare Krishna. When you are doing seva in your own Kunja then the most sweetest part of that seva, most most sweetest part of seva is when your sister manjari another manjari starts speaking into your ear and remembering some lila which has occurred in Radhakunda in that day. The manjaris keep on discussing with each other the lilas of Radhakunda and their perception imagine we are just seeing drop of the lila and we rae having unlimited realizations while chanting. Imagine the manjaris who are seeing Radhakunda’s jal lila with their own eyes, imagine how many sphurtis they must be having, how many realizations they must be having. Unimaginable!
Realizations on Rasa Lila in Radhakunda and My Seva
Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. The sphurti I had this time was very unique. Sometimes while serving in the Kunjas, the manjaris the kind of they are cleaning and serving but suddenly they see the form of Radha Krishna in a very subtle way as if Radha and Krishna have come themselves. Suddenly they feel the presence of Radha Krishna while doing the service. Because their love is so strong that Radha and Krishna are always with them because of the love of the manjaris.
I see you don’t have faith. (laugh) Bhagvati dasi point was right. She was asking yesterday that if there is really realization then we should faint unconscious. So these rae not real realizations. (Noooo, you were just clarifying).Thankyou for remembering that answer. Ya the sphurtis are unlimited so even if you have 1 or 2 drops still you can see. If we have 100% sphurti you become unconscious.
Devotee: Are Radha and Krishna already there?
Just now I said sphurti of Radha Krishna. They are not there, They have already left. Its night time. I am thinking about night time now, always intune with the time. And the beauty of Ananga manjari Kunja that it is illuminated even in night time. It looks like sunlight, so bright and shinning Ananga manjari’s Kunja, very bright. I can see that thats why I am saying.
Devotee: And Radha Krishna never have evening pastimes there?
They have! Sometimes Radha and Krishna come for Rasa lila in Radhakunda and that rasa lila is the best of all rasa lilas for dancing. That happens on the Rasavadi ghat. One ghat name is Rasavadi ghat on the southern banks of Radhakunda, on the southern side where our ashram is. And that is why I have chosen this as ashram because my seva is not only there in Madhyan lila but also seva is also there in the night in rasa lila. Now I know why our ashram is in Champaklata Kunja. Its very easy from here to go to Rasavadi ghat. These kinds of buildings are not there in nitya lila. Everything is Kunjas, galis, can easily go arches, caves. (Devotee askes question)- Ya! Maybe when I will go I will give them this idea Bhagvati Radharani’s idea (laugh).
Radha Krishna are dancing and dancing. It’s a whole dancing area. And They are floating in the air, Their lotus feet doesnot touch the ground. katha ganam natyam gamanam api vamsi priya–sakhi.
Girivardhari is the name in naimitik lila and Jay Radha Madhav Kunja Bihari is in nitya lila in Radhakunda. Why Bhaktivinoda Thakur has said Girivardhari?
In goloka every walk is like a dance and the feet is not touching the ground. In swarga lok, in heavenly planets the demigods dont touch the ground then how will Radha Krishna touch the ground when They are dancing? They are flying. They dancing so fast. Its like flying. That’s why Kunja Bihari. The name Kunja Bihari comes from the dancing. “Bihari” means to dance, Kunja Bihari. Jay Radha Madhav Kunja Bihari, Gopi Jan Vallabh Girivaradhari. You may ask why Girivardhari? Girivardhari is the name in naimitik lila and Jay Radha Madhav Kunja Bihari is in nitya lila in Radhakunda. Why Bhaktivinoda Thakur has said Girivardhari? What is the answer? Because when Radha and Krishna enter one Kunja, I can see that in the Southern Kunja. When Radha and Krishna enter one Kunja sometimes all the sakhis gather together all the manjaris and they tell Krishna We want to see how You lifted Goverdhan hill, show us in the Kunja. We want to see.
In Goloka dham in the nitya lila Giriraj dharan is a rumor, it never happened. But is a rumor like Kansa is a rumor. Radharani threatens if you do this then I will take You to Kansa, there is no Kansa. It is a rumor. Naturally its happening in the Kunja. Krishna lifts, takes some flower shows lika and all the gopis are singing nice songs. Jay Radha Madhav Kunja Bihari, Gopi Jan Vallabh Girivaradhari. The touch of Krishna’s Girivardhari. And as you know when He lifted Goverdhan He was looking at Radha only, so He also in the kunjas keeps looking at Radha.
Krishna Glorifies Radha’s Beauty
Every moment Krishna is looking at Radha, Krishna is getting new and new sphurtis. Krishna is analyzing every bodily limb of Radha. Raghunath das Goswami writes that in Dan Keli Chintamani. Very beautiful book where Krishna is analyzing every part of Radha’s body and Krishna is saying how much tax Radha has to pay for every part of Her body. For your nose 40 million Red Diamonds Krishna is telling to Radha. In this way He is appreciating Radha’s beauty, He is glorifying Radha’s beauty. Jay Radha Madhav Kunja Bihari, Gopi Jan Vallabh Girivaradhari.
When you start realizing the form, the pastimes, the qualities in Hare Krishna mahamantra, then you will start having the same realizations in any name of the lord, principle name of the lord. Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. I suddenly heard the voice of Krishna telling priya narm sakha Subal, its already 9’o clock when will I meet Radha in the night? Krishna becomes very very anxious.
The Greed for Nitya Lila
I shouldnot say that (laugh), my kutir Gour Kishor das babaji pastime. I will not tell you that pastime otherwise all of you will get up and leave. Surely you will leave, it is guarantee. Even if you will not leave you will feel bad about sitting here (laugh). Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. Oh I had a beautiful realization while I was writing the “नि” while chanting Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. I was putting a garland, round garland on the ratna sinhasana which I had just cleaned in Kunja. (Devotee- which flowers Gurudev? ) So many flowers Malati, Juhi, Chameli, Champa, Rajnigandha. Oh god I just want to leave this world and enter into the nitya lila. Sometime the greed become so much that the devotee dies. The greed to enter lila. The more you see the lila, the more your greed to go there increases. If you don’t see then don’t want to go, one is happy. And for swiz devotee the Nitya lila is very good because there silence. (laugh). There is music but still there is silence. Vamshi is always there, even the number of manjaris are continuously increasing. Saddhana siddha manjaris are coming, new manjaris are coming but still there is never over population, too much talking you know. Its always silence, very peaceful.
Nitaiputra das always say when will I die. His only question is when will I die, go into the nitya lila and we want to live forever. ahanyahani bhūtāni gacchantīha yamālayam śeṣāḥ sthāvaram icchanti kim āścaryam ataḥ param, Mahaharat. What surprise, everyone is dying but still I want to live forever. So many billionaires have died. You see photos black and white photos of 1800s 1900s. So many rich people have already died, you still think I am still 40, only 40? I am only 40. Some people will tell you, you are becoming older. Mmmm, I am not becoming older, I am only 40.They want to, like in America they hide the stool after passing the stool they have automatic flush. They don’t even want to see the stool. Similarly they want to hide their old age also. They don’t want to see.
Greed for Radharani’s Service and Meaning of tavaivasmi..
But so easy to come to Radhaknd and prepare for the nitya lila. So easy, its very easy. Whoever I am, whaterver I am, oh Radharani! I am yours. I come with the vow even if you kick me I will not leave Radhakunda. tavaivasmi tavaivasmi, its one sided. Either Radharani says you are mine, no worry! Raghunath das goswami says I am yours! I am yours! I am yours! I am throwing myself to you whether you want to accept me or not I don’t care. I am yours! I am yours! I am yours! Why? Because I cannot live without you na jivami tvaya vina.
iti vijnaya devi tvam, Oh Radharani, remember that, You should remember iti vijnaya devi tvam I am yours! I am yours! I am yours! and I will not leave you! I will not leave you! I will not leave you! Remember that then the only option for you is naya mama caranantikam, only option for you is to take me to your lotus feet because if you don’t take me to your lotus feet, I will not leave. I am not giving You any option. Tavaivasmi.
And how can I leave? My seva is here. Even if I want to leave I cannot leave my kunja. I have to prepare my Kunja for tomorrow madhyan lila. How can I leave? If I leave then I am gone, finished! All the remembrance is gone. Because I am staying in Radhakunda and Radharani is very pleased on me because of my residing in Radhakunda that’s why She is giving me this sphurti of seeing my kunja. But if I leave, all sphurtis gone. In Rishikesh I went for 2 days before kartik and I went on the top of the guest house and Ganga was flowing and I was slapping myself why did I come here? I couldn’t remember anything. I could only see the Himalayas and Ganga. Inside I was crying. But She is very merciful. I thought something should not happen to me like that babaji that my spurti is gone but when I came back I go immediately when I entered. Once I was coming from Ekachakra I think last year I entered into the Kunja, this Mahadev temple my bag suddenly it dawned upon me that I am entering the kunja and the bag fell from my head and I became like dizzy. Suddenly you felt that, this Ramchandra Ghera is really powerful something special about it.
Most Beautiful Part of Nitainam And Hare Krishna Mahamantra Realizations
Ramchandra Kaviraj, He was Karna manjari. (Devotee: Why is it named as Ramchandra?) Manjaris are here. There must be external reason ancestors but I am telling you the internal reason. Hare Krishna, when you become empty of realizations just chant or do Nitainam Lekhan, Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. The most beautiful part of Nitainam which I like is is the most that was my most attraction right from beginning and that is not any of the ten syllables. The most beautiful part of Nitainam is not any of the ten syllables. It is the connection between first syllable and second syllable because this is my bridge to meet Rupa manjari.
(Explaining through Nitainam Syllable picture) This is Ananga Manjari’s kunja and this is the bridge, crystal bridge to Lalita’s kund. When you are walking here this side is Radhakunda and this side is Radhakunda and this side is Jhulan ghat. So when you are walking from here you can see Jhulan ghat and you can see Govind ghat and you can see water of Rahakund on both sides and in the straight you can see Lalita kunja. So it is my favorite part.
I am very attracted with bridges. I liked Laxman jhula so much in Rishikesh that I went from Laxman jhula and I walked all the 3 kilometers and came back from Ram jhula. I wanted to see Ram jhula also, bridge. So this is the bridge from here you were not there Shyamali, so this side you can see Jhulan ghat, Shringar ghat, Bhojan ghat. When you come on the bridge and from here you can see the Govind ghat here and this is the das goswami ghat, Lalita kunja. So its like Jahnava Mata’s kunja you are entering into Lalita kund. So in the front you can see Lalita kunja and both sides you can see waters of Radhakunda. On this side you can see Jhulan ghat. This side you can see Govinda ghat. Now I remember when I was a child in Mumbai there is a place in the middle of ocean there is bridge that is known as Haji Ali. Its a muslim shrine they worship in the middle of ocean. Whenever my car or vehicle used to pass through that I was very attracted to the bridge in the middle.
Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. Many manjaris have a small kitchen in Ananga manjaris kunja and after doing our sevas, all the manjaris eat there something I remaining from the afternoon Radha Shyam’s mahaprasad. Fruits of Radhakunda are the most juiciest and the most nourishing and the sweetest. Even fruit you eat you feel like satisfied. Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. If you will do operation of my stomach you will find fruit of the real Radhakunda.
And just now when I chanted mahamantra I had a beautiful realization. The manjaris are putting the fruits in each others mouth. Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. Just like small girls how they laugh and joke with each other, the manjaris are always.. Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. ..(Devotee: does Ananga or Rupa also exchange..) Why sometimes? What are you saying sometimes. Only distance which is separating Rupa and Anaga is this bridge and you are saying sometimes. And Ananga manjari’s kunja is not connected by bridge to Champaklata kunja, Ananga manjari’s kunja is not connected by bridge to Tungvidya kunja, Ananga manjari’s kunja is not connected by bridge to Vishakha’s kunja, Ananga manjari’s kunja is connected by bridge to Rupa manjari’s kunja, Lalita’s kunja and still you saying sometimes. Every time Ananga manjari has to leave her kunja, She has to pass through that bridge. That’s the only way out.
Its remarkable how Nitai in His own name He gave me His kunja. See its remarkable. In first syllable itself. Jay Nitai! Jay Nitai! How can you not glorify Nitai? How can one forget the favors of Nitai even if we enter nitya lila, how can one forget His favors on us? He is so happy, Nitai has tears in eyes when He sends a gopi and He becomes a manjari, Nitai is so happy.
Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. Slowly slowly by chanting the Hare Krishna mahamantra, you will start feeling the environment of Radhakunda, start feeling the air of Radhakunda, start feeling the noises, the sound in Radhakunda, you will start smelling the fragrances of Radhakunda.
Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Ram Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. swayam eva sphuradyata, it comes automatically. I have not taken Siddha Pranali from anyone but this is coming to me. This is the proof that Harinam is everything. Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare.
Any questions or comments please correct me I am a fool. I like so many mistakes nidrālasya hata, sukārye virata, akārye udyogī āmi.
Devotee: Can we become manjari of Jahnava Mata also?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: You can become a maid servant of Jahnava Mata, dasi in Nitai dham in Yogapith in one form. Some devotees have male form in Gaura lila and gopi/manjari form in Radha Krishna lila. Some devotee may have a female form also in Nitai Gaura lila as a dasi of Jahnava and be a manjari.
Devotee: What is meant by dasi of Jahnava Mata?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: Dasi is like a maid servant. Jahnava Mata is married to Nitai. Parkiya bhaav is only in Vraj.
Devotee: If we are a sakha then we cant enter Jahnava Nitai kunja?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: No, the sakhas Nitai take them outside. Jahnava Mata when She enters into Her kunja in the middle of Nitai kund then only intimate maid servants of Jahnava Mata they go with Her. The same who are Ananga Manjari’s assistants here in Radhakunda, the same.
Devotee: So we can become dasi and manjari both?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: Two forms you can get.
Devotee: And you can become sakha and manjari too?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: No, if you are sakha then you are sakha also in Vraj lila.
But then you are asking how one has a male form in that lila and be a manjari here. That’s a very good question. If you get a male form in Gaura lila then you are assistant of Gadaddhar Pandit. Gadaddhar Pandit is Radharani. So when Gauranga goes with Gadaddhar to relish the madhurya lila then one is assistant of Gadaddhar like Kishor. You serve as a Kishor. I have answers to all questions. By the causeless mercy of Nitai from 1989-2016 there is not a single question that I have not been able to answer. Maybe Jahnava Mata disappearance today was the first question.
Devotee: So that Kishor can enter the kunj?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: That Kishor is with Gaur lila not with Nitai lila. There is Kishor. Nitai’s yogapith there are male servants and maid servants both. But for Jahnava and Vasudha maid servants are their assistants. And Jahnava and Vasudha are in madhurya rasa, They are Ananga manjari so all their assistants are maid servants. A male servant cant go with Them inside the kunja. But with Gauranga you can become a male Kishor and still have a madhurya rupa as a gopi in Gaur Gadaddhar.
Devotee: So if we want to serve Jahnava Nitai, Vasudha Nitai, what should we do? Which form?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: Its more secret than even your manjari form. Very high! To understand your dasi form or das form its very very deep we have to go. First when you realize your manjari form in the Vraj lila, then by the mercy of Vraj lila you get that form. So in the beginning you may not be even able to visualize that form.
Devotee asks question
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: Its very confidential. Sarvabhauma Bhattacharya writes Vrindato vishayos tasya bhakticha sata janmani means for 100 lives you are thinking about your form in Vraj lila you will get your form with Nitai Gaur. More confidential. But ya with Nita’s lila you can enter faster. Gauranga is very secret, very confidential.
Best is to catch Jahnava Mata’s feet. That why Bhaktivinoda Thakur says Nitai Jahnava pada chaya jar aash. Navdvipa dham mahatmaya kahe Bhaktivinod das. Always remembering the lotus feet of Jahnava and Nitai. If you do that its very easy. Very very easy.
Devotee: How can we catch lotus feet of Jahnava Mata?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: By remembering, just remember Her. She is Ananga Manjari. Infact very nice thing I was so happy that Name in the Jahnava Mata pranam mantra was given to me as my sanyas name. shri jaahnaveshvarim vande, bhaktiratna pradaayinim. Oh I felt so nice bhaktiratna pradaayinim. Maybe I have come to this world to do a mission of Jahnava Mata bhaktiratna pradaayinim. But still I don’t know what is that mission. I am mudh mati.
Devotee: if you are in Gaur Gadaddhar serving as a Kishor, still we should take shelter of Nitaichand?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: You cannot enter without Nitai. Nitai is the dham, sambandha. Gadadhar Pandit (Radharani) what She says in Caitanya Bhagavat? She says anybody who has even a drop of lack of faith in Nitai I will never see that persons face in my life. Gadaddhar Pandit is saying. Nitaisevika dasi has written an essay on that ‘Gadaddhar Pandit love for Nitai’.
Devotee: Is it that manjaris are lower than maid servants of Jahnava?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: No both lilas are equal. Both are non different. There are some specific characteristics which are unique in each lilas.
Devotee: But for us its better to become sakha of Nitai?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: Then you cannot become gopi of Radha Krishna. Maybe you can become priya narm sakha maximum. If you want to become manjari then you have to take Jahnava Nitai together.
Devotee: We have this offensive ego. How will it go?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: By doing Nitainam Lekhan, by touching NItainam in the air your ego is melting, literally its melting because you are touching the abhimāna śūnya nitāi nagare beḍāyay. Your ego is melting, heart is melting, tears are coming and goosebumps.
Devotee: Why do we do only Nitai not Jahnava?
Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj: Jahnava Mata is included. The first circle is Jahnava Mata’s kunja. That’s why Nitai give priority to Jahnava Mata first. Not only Jahnava, the whole lila sthali of Jahnava.
(By Bhaktiratna Sadhu Maharaj, November, 2016)
Transcription Service by Vasudha Nitai dasi.